I already have my present ready for that person I picked out in the Rubidium Kris Kringle. Judging from the wishlist, I can safely assume that the person's a "she". But if I'm wrong -- then that'd mean the whole world's gone upside down. 'Coz no guy in their right minds would wish for... that.

I've been busy with a lot of things lately, that I keep on forgetting to blog about one semi-important thing that happened last week. I GOT BOOTED OUT OF THE ENGLISH TOURNAMENT. Call me mababaw if you will, but it's actually one of the things that keep me looking forward to English class. Oh, fine. I guess Sir Arghs' witty comments keep me in earnest, too. But, still...

I feel bad about it. Yeah. There's always that panghihinayang. All those, "What ifs..." After all, Carl and I had the same score at the LT: 50/60. What if I studied five minutes more? Would it have made a difference? If I went to sleep earlier? Would I have retained more information by then? If I rechecked my paper one more time before submitting? Would I have noticed at least one more item that needed to be corrected? If I wasn't so relaxed while taking the exam? Would that have made me stay more focused?

I guess this kind of pent-up anguish doesn't reflect in my face whenever you see me at school. I'm not one who easily shows her feelings to others. [Yes, I said this to someone already. And... you -- you'd probably be reading this, anyway.] But apparently, I fail to conceal this emotion to one person. Yeah... one person at school. I bet he always sees the disappointment in my face whenever we pass each other by. I can't help it.

You're probably wondering why I want that class champion title so badly. Ohh. Wait. Come to think of it, I just realized now -- it's not the title I'm after...

...It's not the +50 points for the household scores, either... [That would be like cake after an already satisfying meal, in that case.]

...I just really wanted to represent Rubidium for the Memoirs of a Geisha exam, that's all...

...no, I don't think that's it.

Oh no. I'm leaving this entry as it is. A new idea just bubbled in my head while I typed this entry.

It's been a while since I updated. Well... I'm doing this now since I have nothing better to do with my time this dismissal. And I'm doing this too... so I have an excuse to use the PC at the library. Or something like that. Aaagh. I should be working on STR or CS , but I'm putting it off for later. Ohwell.

Ultimate is fun... sort of. Playing with the disc during PE is good and all. Playing with the disc while waiting for the next teacher is NOT fun at all. I don't consider myself a magnet for all sorts of flying objects and such, but I got hit by the disc 3 times today. I think Dindo was the one responsible for all of them? Or maybe Yves. Or someone else.

It's perio week next week. And there's just 2-3 weeks before Christmas. Time flies so fast. And then we're going to go welcome the new year [once more]. And then January 30 will pass us by. Then we "graduate" from Junior Year. There's still so much I want to do at school, but I never get around to doing them.

I wish that the person who picked my name during the Kris Kringle would grant my wish. I even gave him/her a sample of the gift I wanted [through the help of Denise]. Jason says it sounds very "addict-ish" of me to do that, but... hehehe. Since it's Christmas time anyway, I might as well take advantage of the generosity of people. LOL.

Speaking of gifts. I'm actually part of the Kris Kringle of Adelfa. [Yeah!] Even though I'm technically "originally" from Jasmin. I feel attached to their section now. "More than Jasmin," you ask? Uhh... I can't give a clear answer for that.

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Some people are so annoying. They have enough free time to attend the Health meeting of the group they're not even part of, but they don't seem to give a hoot on their upcoming deadlines for other group requirements. IT MAKES ME MAD. ANNOYED AND PISSED. And in case you're reading this, annoying-person-who-I'm-referring-to, I'll be marking you with "No Participation" when I submit our final work.

I wonder what happened at the English LT. I still prefer English 1 or 2 rather than English 3 since this one's focusing on literature. I'm no good at interpreting haikus and poems! Ohwell, Rubidium's first subject of the week is English, anyway.

I'm done reading Memoirs of a Geisha... err... again. Am I the only person here who actually found the book interesting? Anyway, I think I'll read it all over again next weekend nalang. Must. Get. Ready. For. The. Perio! I don't want what to experience what happened in last quarter's perio. I bombed the exam, y'know?

I have to start working on reviewing for our Math LT! The game we had last Friday was really sabog. Sam kept on mixing up our group's answer, so we kept on writing the wrong ones. Hahaha. It's all in the experience, anyway.

I wonder where Ma'am Kiel gets her ideas for the format of our games/quizzes. She always has something new for us to do, and the mechanics are quite unique. My favorite was the Super Bingo quiz.

Sir Tan and Ma'am Bawagan are really random during classes. Seriously. While you're working on a seatwork or having class recitation, they suddenly say something bizarre/weird/out-of-place yet funny, and then you laugh, but you don't if you're laughing because of what they said or the fact that the line came from them.

My character in Audition levels up super-slowly. 85% [which is equivalent to 90k EXP] to go before leveling up. That would probably take me 2 months. Nooo! I might have lost my interest in Audition by then and moved on to a new online game. Maybe I'll access my Ragnarok account again...

I can't wait for the next installment in FMA: Brotherhood [both the anime and manga]. The plot's getting really interesting now, yet the creators are taking uber-long to release one episode or chapter! Aaagh! I can't wait 'till the next installment. I guess for the meantime I'll just relive the episodes of Special A or Nodame Cantabile in the meantime.

I don't get it, but I normally find Sir Tan grouchy during Thursdays. Candy warned me about his temper before Rubidium went inside the Chem room... so yeah. At least it wasn't as bad as I presumed it would be. But the lesson we're having is very... magulo. Or maybe it's just the way Sir taught it. Or how I learned it. Good luck nalang sa amin during the PS/LT.

In PopLaw, I managed to get Gabby's bonus question correctly! "Gabby D' Great", wasn't it? It's a good thing Lev suddenly had a slip of the tongue while we were at the lib, so I got that one right. Which reminds me, I have to start creating my PPT presentation about the UNCLOS.

I miss playing Pokemon. So I think I'm gonna take my trading cards from the closet and start rebuilding a new deck. And along with it, perhaps I can renew my game in Pokemon Crystal/Emerald. Berry-picking's one of my favorite parts in the game, s'matter of fact.

Both on the 5th, 5 months apart. Wow. And what kind of birthday gifts will I get for them?! [This is the part I hate about birthdays. LOL.]

Ian, Carl and some other Adelfa people claim that when I let my hair down, I look like Ma'am Bic. [<-- Correct spelling, or not? Basta, siya yung adviser ng Sodium.] Is that true?

For three consecutive days, Rubidium's gonna have makeup classes -- STR, SS and Chem. And just when I thought I'd be able to relish the early dismissal Wednesday and Thursday brings us.

I REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PASKORUS ELIMS.

[rant]SINO YUNG SUMIGAW NG "EPIC FAIL"? WHOEVER YOU ARE, I'M GONNA HATE YOU FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR. WALANG KWENTA, DAHIL DOON WE JUST BLEW OUR CHANCES OF ENTERING THE FINALS!!![/rant]

*takes a deep breath*

Wala man lang discipline! Nakakabadtrip kaya yung nangyari. I know sobrang panghihinayang yung naramdaman ko when they announced the winners. We stood a chance... AAAGH! It makes me mad just reliving what happened.

Lesson learned? Kung wala namang disiplina yung tao, huwag mo na pasalihin sa Paskorus. Kahit gaanong kagaling pa yan, wala rin namang bisa iyun kung hindi niya kayang pagbutihin ugali o pamamaraan niya.

I finished my essay for English today, and I submitted it to Sir Arghs this morning. I gotta take advantage of that +1 bonus, hahaha. I chose the moon as the landscape that best describes me. [Do you think it's a fit?] I like the way I reasoned out in that essay, and here's hoping that Sir appreciates it. Eep~

Cotillion practice today started off at 5PM already. Apparently, there were other students [from other year levels] who were using the ASTB for their own set of practices. Anyway, my feet, legs and arms didn't hurt as much as before. Yay for me~

Paskorus eliminations is just two days away, and Rubidium's performance isn't really up to par... yet. I know that with a lil' bit more sacrifice tomorrow, we can pull off a decent rendition for the judges. And I really like the choreography [which was headed by Denise]. I bet we look like little kiddies.

Still, I can't help but wish that Sir Lim, Rb's adviser, would show us a little more enthusiasm or give out support whenever we practice. I see Ma'am Rosos and Ma'am Kiel giving their all for their advisory classes. What about us?! *sigh* I guess he'll just be there to take pictures of us on performance day. How... boring. T__T

I also don't know the final count of the Rb people joining in Paskorus. If we met the minimum of 15 participants, wouldn't it be better to just chuck out the other people who might just end up ruining our stint? Yes, I know -- it sounds harsh. But that's what I 'm feeling right now. Hahayzz.

There's a lot of people talking or referring to the newly-released movie 2012. What's up with that? I'm not going to watch that since I'll most likely end up with nightmares. I can't stand those apocalyptic kind of genre or what-not.

NEWSFLASH. I made it to the semi-finals of this quarter's English tournament. But for the first time... I'm the one without the advantage going into the next round. It's me versus MJ, and the other bracket has Carl and Nikki facing off. Good luck to the four of us, and may the best man/woman win.

Good thing is, 5 out of 6 members in my group are still in the Iron Man, so that's cool. ( Si RJ naman kasi...! Nag-absent pa para sa Fil Journ contest niya! Buti nalang hindi ako nag-Eng Journ. :P )

I have to continue my palanca-making. I only managed to finish one during the weekend, and I must say that one even needs to undergo some more revision. How many am I making, anyway? I'd say about 9 only. I also wonder who are the teachers who'll be going. If time permits, I'll be making for 1-2 teachers. Seriously.

Anyway. More than 3 people have noticed that I kinda looked spaced out today. I apologize -- I didn't feel that well this morning, and it carried on until the afternoon.

Sir Tan also used the last 20 minutes of our Chem period explaining some life lessons/principles to us. It was rather interesting to hear, considering that I don't really pay much attention to what he says outside of our lessons. He said something like, "It's not our obligation to change the world, but it is our obligation to change ourselves." Interesting.

May scholarship meeting yung mga 3rd Year teachers this morning. Wala tuloy kaming Filipino tsaka Biology. Buti nalang, kasi magkakaroon ata kami ng quiz. Or was it a game? I'm glad we still had Physics class, though. Sir Lim and his consideration/kindness/tolerance/goodness/<insert positive adjective here> made me rethink how I've been acting this whole school year...

I take things for granted. And more often than not, I have to screw things up before I learn. At least the damage [in this case] wasn't so drastic. But still. I want to change -- for the better! Uyeah. It's time to make resolutions that I'll be working on in the following weeks. Nah, scratch that. I'm gonna start it today. Tonight. For good. *inhale, exhale* Go, Hamsy! It shouldn't be that... err... hard, right? *breathe in, breathe out*

Ultimate was fun. I partnered with RJ for this session. It was basically catch-throw-catch-throw with the frequent hulog-pulot-throw again. But at least as the minutes ticked away those fumbles/misses gradually decreased. And I can finally run three laps straight without feeling too tired afterwards.

Speaking of challenging tasks and what-nots, I think it's just a matter of finding an inspiration or motivation to keep you preoccupied. I know that while I was running around the oval there were two crazy ideas that were fighting for attention in my brain. I was busy contemplating them, and before I realized it -- I had gone around and done it. Done what, you ask? The running, I mean. [Sorry, my thoughts seem so scattered right now. Well, it has always been that way. No surprise, there.]

Good luck to our English group's presentation tomorrow. Was it tomorrow ba? I think it was on Friday. Waa. I'm now confused. Bukas na rin yung first tournament quiz of the quarter! Go, Sentai! Hihihi. :))

Today was one of those "OK lang" days. Dunno how to describe it, really. The events that happened this day seemed so... distant. Accomplishment # 1 -- I was able to do three laps around the oval without stopping. Yesssh, I consider that an achievement, especially for someone physically-challenged such as me. Well, maybe that would be an overstatement. But I only have a so-so liking for PE, so there. Ultimate was also... sort of... okay. I still prefer Table Tennis/Badminton over it, tho.

Ohyeah! Today was the first time I tried going to cotillion practice. Honestly, I thought of dropping out last Friday. I was NOT really in the mood to do anything worthwhile last week and all. ( Yes -- dancing is worth it... every once in a while! ) Well, I'm glad I pulled out on that decision. Hehehe. And now I have to start training myself to wear heels. I'm not really fond of them, and I don't wear them pretty much except for formal occasions.

Another thing! Sir Arghs was absent = No English! Ma'am Chupungco was absent = No STR! Sir Paolo just gave us an EXTREMELY EASY five-point quiz = only 10 minutes of CS! Sir Gonzales was absent = No Filipino! Sir Lim just gave us reminders = free period in Homeroom! Ma'am Jen postponed our class discussion = free period in Health!

Technically, the only subject we had today was SS. And maybe you can throw in Chemistry [to give Sir Tan some credit, at least]. That's just the shadow of what's about to come -- tomorrow! Why do I suddenly have the feeling that today is what you call "calm before the storm". I'd say it's more like a "whirwind", actually. A whirlwind of quizzes, LTs and other requirements. *gulp*

I feel angry today. At someone. No, it's not school-related or anything. More like annoyed, I guess. But never mind -- I shall not go through the details here. Since it's not like anyone reading this knows that person anyway. LOL. D:<

Buti nalang classes were suspended today. But I don't see any rains or anything that would possibly say read as "Signal No. 2". But that's better, I think. I'm starting to feel stressed every time I hear a storm's approaching.

I wasn't able to study much for today's supposed English quiz + Bio recitation + SS quiz + Chem LT + Math LT. At least the break will give me enough time to prepare... mentally and physically. Ohyeah -- there was also the supposed cotillion session or something?

I was able to finish Memoirs of a Geisha this afternoon, and I find it a very enjoyable read. Not like The Kitchen God's Wife whose storyline seemed to drag on... or The White Tiger whose main character was very disagreeable IMO.

Basta. The book was really good. Yun lang talaga masabi ko. And I'll prolly be reading it at least 3 more times before the periodical exams since it's so... enthralling. And the Chairman there at the latter part was very -- how should I put it -- considerate on his part? May pagka-enigmatic na rin siguro, and he turned out to by favorite character throughout the story.

One more thing. I do NOT like Chiyo/Sayuri's personality, the same way I hate Helen's and Balram's. They're so selfish and absorbed in their on goals or what-not. Annoying characters. Hmph. D:<

I'll now be off to play Audition. I played GrandChase awhile ago for more than six hours, and I'm sick of seeing the way Elesis holds her sword/spear. And the <whack> <whack> <slash> <boom> sounds the computer makes also gets to you eventually.

Tomorrow... I'll also be heading off with my family to the Chinese cemetery to visit the house of the living dead. I wonder how much the place has changed since we went there last year? I bet there'll be a lot of stuff to clean up...